I’m so stinking excited!!

I have a job interview tomorrow.

It’s the last interview in the entire process.

I went through two interviews before this. Talking to HR and then speaking to the person I’ll be assisting and now I’m having a panel interview with people in the company. I have my questions ready to go ahhhh

But I’m so nervous like this job is very interesting I can grow in the company if I choose to and the salary is where I need it to be at ahhhhhhhhhhhh (that’s me screaming!!)

My best friend and I pre-celebrated when we were on the cruise!! Being in the frequency of me already having this job! Completing this stepping stone!

Ahhhhh

I’m so freaking nervous as well?

Why?

Because the last time I was this close to getting the job offer… I was redirected… the position-surprise to everyone including the recruiter… the position closed. They rearranged the position to where an assistant was managing two people. The director ended up hiring an assistant they worked with in the past or something like that.

Either way, ya girl is still looking for a job months later.

That was the job I thought would keep me in Los Angeles and working in the entertainment industry. Having that job and not worrying about paying bills would’ve allowed me to figure out what was the next direction of my career.

5 months later I’m looking for a career that fits. But to be honest I feel like I’m looking for something that’s more than just a career. Dare I say, I’m looking for a passion career. Even if it’s something I build from the ground up myself… ughhhhh!!! Either way I still need a career/job that can sustain me especially in this economy.

I’m excited because I would be so stoked to work in this industry that deals with music, community, and even production.

Wish me blessings and luck.

The interview is tomorrow. I’ll update you on how it goes

Ahhhhhhhhhh

7:16 pm

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1:44 pm August 21,2024

I’m listening to the R Spot podcast by my girl Iyanla Vanzant while creating my cover art for the episodes for this season of Naked Truth.

Ive eaten breakfast ( brown sugar oatmeal, blueberry bagel spread with nondairy strawberry cream cheese both foods mediumly sprinkled with chia seeds and some herbal tea)

I have wiped down the house because coughs and sneezes are present.

I have scrolled on the socials and read my Chani and Pattern for the day!

I said a prayer yesterday to lift up my spirits and to ask for help and to also receive this offer letter from this here job okay!!

Can I get a Amen and a Awomen

Ahhhhhh

I’m so freaking nervous I just wanted to check in with you before the interview. My hands will probably be shaking too much to type mins before.

Anyone else get nervous poops?

1:48 pm

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8:22 am August 22,2024

Yes I know it’s the next day…

After the interview was over and mind you it lasted about 40 mins… I started jamming to my music because I was freaking excited!!!

The feedback they were giving me during my interview on my answers!!!

Swoon!

I mean come on… I’m that girl lol I ain’t a Gemini for nothing lmao

Ahhhhhhh

I’m so fucking excited and nervous like ahhhh the interview was on a Wednesday so I should hear from them Friday the earliest and Monday the lastest!!!

Okay

That’s all

The interview went fucking great

Landing this job I can finally relax and mentally think on what’s ahead for me. It’s like the door that’ll unlock so much.

Reminds me of when I was interviewing for my first big girl job lol

2/3 interviews I was like this went good I think lol. The head of the department interview had me so confused because I think I was giving good answers buttt their reply didn’t seem like it… mmmmm… mattered in a sense. Like if I could soak information up like a sponge then that’s all that mattered lmaoo

Unbeknownst to me the first Interview and the last interview was the most important. To this day those women are my girls!!

Miss ya <3

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7:51 pm August 24,2024

I did send everyone a group thank you email. The recruiter emailed me back and from the exclamation points I think good news will be coming

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August 26,2024 12:57 pm

They emailed me back asking for references!!!!!!!

I got my references and I just sent it off to the recruiter!

Am I nervous? Yes!

I already took my nervous poop! Lmao

And I took a shower washing away my worries!

The job is already mine!

They are just making sure I’m 100% legit that everything I said out of my mouth is real!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I’m light headed!! I need to eat something before my Auntie duties

Speak latersssssss ahhhhhhh!!!

12:59 pm

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10:16 am August 28,2024

Earlier this week the recruiter asked for 3 professional references. Okay okay this is a good sign. I sent them my references information, they sent in their responses and now I’m waiting for another email on an update on the next steps. Goodness I hope the update is that I got the job!!!!!

My stomach has been in knots all damn week. Shìt not even all day! All week my stomach has been! In knots for two weeks.

I didn’t even know they were gonna ask for references. Ahhhh I’m a ball of nerves.

To go through 3 interviews and send in 3 professional references and not get this job. All of this emotional and body stress for no reason!!!! Ahhhh I’ll be a pissed gal. A sobbing pissed gal!!!

Just pray for meeee ahhhhhh I feel it in my bones that this job is mine. In my head I’m the only person they are interviewing. I’m the only person that looks great. Sounds great. And my references backed up everything I was saying.

They are just double checking for their safety. They are coming up with the numbers for my salary. Checking to see when my first day can be. Setting up my email address. Making space for me. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh

10:23 am

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August 31,2024

12:54 pm

I GOT THE FUCKING JOBBBBB 🎊🎊🎊🎊👻👻👻👻

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

When I got the call I was driving trying to find a parking spot to go to a Jazz event. I’m on the phone with the director trying to not scream in her ear lol.

She asks me, “Do I still want the job?” “Of course I want the job lol I’ve been on pins and needles all week”

Ahhhhhh

After the call, I shake my steering wheel and just start crying

Ahhhh

Ahhhh

I begin to scream and just feel so fucking elated that this is happening.

I’m so excited that I don’t know how to fully express my excitement

Like I just wanna jump up and down and scream for everyone to hear

I’m super proud of myself for continuing to dig for gold.

Digging for gold when I wasn’t sure there truly was gold there uhhhhh!!!

Living in LA. Applying for jobs, in hopes of getting back on my feet financially made me feel like Sheila from Why Did I Get Married.

Being in the storm of things and coming to a disruptive ending. Seeing the signs of this tower moment happening. Trying my hardest to run to safety, to patch things up… but all my efforts turned to dust.

Up on this mountain feeling depleted, alone, and feeling the heaviness of the moment on my shoulders.

*exhale*

The handsome Troy that allows me to work at his father’s store to make a living. Who gives me a place to stay so that I can figure out life during this time of not recognizing my life and who I am…

But I take Troy on his offer and from there I see how life can be. How life is when I’m with someone who sees me and appreciates all of who I truly am.

At times in life we are given a glimpse of hope and faith and are asked… are you willing to take my hand and see where this goes?

When we answer… “Yes”

I believe we are given a chance to see the ways hope and faith can pull us to the other side of better days and a better us.

I truly truly believe the answer to our prayers is always being hinted at if we just open our eyes and keep the faith high!!

During this time I reminded myself that it’s okay to ask for help… it’s okay to ask Universe for guidance and signs for direction in life.. remind myself that Universe is with me and not against me… remind myself that at this time I have everything I need. I need for nothing more (not to say I don’t need a job lol but to say I’m grateful for everything I have in this present moment. )

If you are at your last… if your tank is about to run out or is running on empty seek help… call on to your spirit guides… call a hotline… call a friend/family member or someone you can trust and ask for help.

You will find the gold.

Before I end this post today I want to end it with space for you… for you to tell yourself how proud you are of you. To hug yourself. To tell yourself how much you love yourself.

Take as much time you need.

Ready?

Okay Go

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