Please don’t ever come here again!

What in the French toast sticks is this Mercury and Venus Retrograde!

Can I tap out?

Raise the white flag because I quit!!!!

I literally asked the Universe, “Did I do something wrong?”

Shìt is hitting ya girl left and right.

I’m at my breaking point of living with my parents, my 20-year-old car keeps needing fucking repairs, and my job makes me sad, anxious, and angry!

The one thing… hope that’s here with me is getting into this school, birthday travel and Beyoncé!

Doing my chant, sage, and other soothing practices are just not helping.

Last week I broke down and cried in my car. I just wanted to walk away from everything. Leave it behind and not even start over.

I need a very very long break where I can clear my mind, body, and soul from stress. Allow myself to think freely without restrictions. Allow myself to come up with creative ideas. To just!

Compartmentalizing is very hard when it’s coming at me from all ends.

I spoke to my doctor at an appointment and she said you seem to be doing great!

I laughed and said thank you.

Even though the cork is no longer inside the wine bottle- I am very aware and am taking steps to no longer be where I am.

Saving money to move

Looking for another job

I have money for a monthly pass until I can figure out what I wanna do with my car

I have plans for the future that can give me hope of being outside of where I am now

But wow man, I will admit being in the moment sucks so much ass

I feel like every time I write on here it’s about something sucky or maybe it’s me and my perspective on things. It’s just…

Realizing that my life is in my hands is pretty overwhelming. What do you mean if I’m unhappy I have to do something about it? What if I have no motivation? What if I don’t know where to begin? What if this… what if that..?

Getting the light bulb moment that it’s up to me to gain some type of strength to pick my ass up and begin step one. Whether that’s signing up for the class, making the meeting, applying for that event I’ve always had my eyes on, pivoting in my career… anything.

If there’s no one around who can help me get out of this rut.

It’s all on me… and that shit is high-key depressing.

I have therapy once a week and I wanna change it to two.

I try to read self help books when I need someone else to speak to me who understands what I’m going through.

I read romance books when my world becomes too much

I watch RuPaul and eat when I’m sad and need something that will make me laugh

I attend events to give my body a feel good chemical and I also go dancing for the same reason.

Being close to someone in an intimate way is such a wonderful natural drug. BUTTTTT don’t do nothing you’ll regret tomorrow lol.

I’m tired

I’m mentally and emotionally exhausted

And please for the love of god I need to find a Pilates class.

The classes here are more expensive than in LA! What the fuck! Imma just need to suck it up and pay. Cuz I need to let this frustration out on a weekly basis! And add in a little yoga for my chakras.

That’s all for now.

-Sabryn

8:17 pm April 2,2025