8:50 pm April 8,2025

I feel hope entering my body. 

Where is it coming from? I can’t even tell you. 

Time passing? Closer to my goal?

I don’t know. 

But it’s there and seems to be growing and I am grateful for that. 

I’ve needed it because before and during Venus and mercury retrograde have been TOUGHHH! 

Anyoooo 

I spent time with my Grandma! 

I just love that lady. She be cracking me up with her looks and sayings. 

Being in her space makes me feel safe and secure. No one dares to rock that boat. To get to me you gotta get to my Grandma and that’s not a lady you want to mess with. 

I enjoy listening to her talk about her life before she birthed her empire. Stories of her life gives me glimpses of her at a younger age. She was tough. Took no shit from nobody. Love big and warm like the cookies we used to bake together when I was a little little girl. 

Listening to her I see glimpses of other family members… how traits and characteristics trickle down in the family. Wonder if it’s really in the genetics. 

I long and miss people I didn’t have a chance to meet because I wasn’t yet here on this Earth or because they passed way before their time. 

The love I have for that human being runs deep and I know her for me as well. 

A while back she reminded me how I used to put ice cubes in my oodles and noodles. I sooo forgot about that. Lmaoo The noodles were too hot for me to eat and instead of waiting for them to cool down, I just added ice. 

Now I just put the bowl of noodles in the freezer for a while. I wondered why I put them in the freezer instead of blowing on them. Lmao 

I’m ready to enjoy my noodles. I don’t want to do no blowing. (The little girl in me jumped out and spoke lol) 

Going over grandmas house was an escape to endless tv, snacks, and unconditional love. The whole block knew we were her grandbabies. Times where a bag of chips were only .25 cents. Get a bunch of snacks for $1. 

Now that I’m back in the city I enjoy going to visit her, for what I first say is a quick chat but then I look at the clock and I’ve been there for 4 hours. 

Is it just me or the naps at Grandmas are THE BESTTT!! Feels like 5 naps in one. I wonder if that’s how we feel while we’re in our mom’s tummy. No care in the world. Just existing. Whatever is going on outside the walls is above me in that moment. 

Leave it to Jesus. 

As a young woman I’m grateful and very blessed to be able to have these moments with my grandma. 

Love that lady <3 

Talk to you tomorrow 

-Sabryn xoxox