8:38 pm April 16,2025

Ya know to be honest I don’t know what to write about today. 

Did have a conversation today with my therapist that ended up with me doing homework. 

I’m one of those…

I like homework.

I know what ever lesson is being taught will stick. But therapy homework ughhhh it’s so hard sometimes 

The last homework I did was about identifying boundaries I create. I only noticed one. A boundary dealing with my time.

A friend was calling while I was in the flow of writing in my journal. I didn’t answer the phone. I called them back when I was done. 

That was my only noticeable boundary I had in a week. 

Sometimes in therapy there’s a part of me who just doesn’t give a fuck and doesn’t want to remember anything that’s being discussed. There’s another part of me that is emotionally depleted that I unconsciously forget the conversation. My mind puts the conversation in a vault and it’s hard to unlock it. 

Does anyone else do that?

Other than that my day was pretty chill. 

Thank goodness. 

I haven’t been coming across those lately. 

The weather was nice. The tulips are blossoming. How lovely. 

Mmmmm

Do you ever go into hermit mode where you don’t talk to anyone. It’s like when your body just needs to recharge and get itself together. Like a computer rebooting and downloading new software on it. 

Every now and again I do that. I’m a 2/4 in human design and it took me awhile to be okay with the rebooting/recharging part. I’m an upbeat person and when I’m not… ughhh it’s feels like darkness. Like a shutdown. But not like a depressive shutdown. It’s more like a “I need to observe what the fuck is going on around me.”

When I’m in this mode I’ve found others don’t like it. * scratch my head* To be honest I’ve learned to not care. It’s irritating though- like you’ll be alright. I’m alive. Nothing is wrong I’m just not talking. At this time I have nothing to say. 

Welp. 

Mmmm

Talk to you tomorrow 

-Say xoxoxo