9:33 pm May 6,2025 

It’s 9:33 pm

I’m in bed early 

Shrimp scampi, Modelo and chocolate cookies for dinner 

I am tired 

I am overwhelmed 

I am just like… what the fuck 

Today at work 

My goodness 

What is going on…. is all I will say 

On to other news 

I finally texted the “Brown Guy”

That is his nickname 

“Brown Guy”

Yes he is Black but that’s not why that’s his nickname 

That’s his nickname because when I saw him he was wearing different shades of brown. Lol

The cut of his shirt to his pants was the perfect ratio. I also believe he has locks 

I saw/ met him the day my friend Kia had her birthday celebration. 

I saw him when we were walking and was like “I’ll talk to him when I see him again.”

I said that in my head lol

I think

I don’t know, that frozen margarita did its thing lol 

Anyway I saw him again and I just walked up to him 

I wasn’t even nervousssss

(I’m also listening to Cheat On You by Reaction Band. It’s a prime twerking song (the end of the song). At the beginning I’m singing my heart out lmaooo)

I say I wasn’t nervous because I have been gaining the courage and skill to walk up to guys I’m attracted to. 

The ones I like never come up to me.

In this climate, I get it, but my goodness, why do the people you don’t have your eyes on always make the move? 

Can the game be even!?

So instead of waiting.

And waiting 

And waiting as they say ladies should

I have decided to take it into my hands and walk up to the gentleman myself

At first it was so hard

I didn’t know what to say 

Then I understood why they don’t come up and speak

Speaking to a stranger on the strength of only oneself. Picking up a conversation in thin fucking air is magic! 

I’m now Penn and Teller 

One time, I had a conversation with a guy drinking water at a party 

“Drinking water at a party?”

“Yea, I’m driving tonight”

“Okay being responsible.”

Then he asked for my name 

Now that may sound easy but I have fumbled HARD!

Fumbled hard while my friend was on FaceTime with me. 

I was in line at Zara on FaceTime with the same Kia, and I saw this girl I thought was very pretty. 

The words came out of my mouth as if I were trying to keep jello in my mouth, and my mouth forgot how to talk. 

It was a mess

Embarrassing!!!

She had a boyfriend 

🍅🍅🍅🍅

Since New Years I have been “practicing” talking to people I think are cute. It’s hard at first because they are so attractive but then after a while that becomes secondary and conversations are easier to have. 

Okay so where was I?

Yes the “Brown Guy”

My mom said his nickname should be “Shades of Brown.” What do you think? Tell me in the comments. Or if you have a better nickname, let me know. I’m all ears 

Okay so…

The party was Saturday and today is Tuesday and I’m just now texting him. 

I know

I was trying to find something cute to say. Days went by and I couldn’t think of anything 

Then I thought of that Alicia Keys music video where she calls the guy and she’s like, “My manager says to put water in the hot chocolate, but I put milk in yours.” 

Lmaooo ah so damn cute 

So like her, I decided to be honest 

Plus I wasn’t too sure what his name was 

I mean, I wasn’t too sure if I remembered his name, and if his name matched the person I remembered it went with 

Does that make sense? 

Lmao 

I got some numbers that day okay and drinks were involved lol

Give me a break lol

I texted him saying 

“Hi, is this “Brown Guy” who had on the brown outfit at Bullpen Saturday 

I swear I’m not spam 😂😂”

Lmaooo

Did he respond?

Yes he did 

Sooooooooo (I’ve been saying that a lot. I need another transition word)

We will see where… if it goes anywhere 

Nighty night 

(What a cliff hanger!? I know . lol)

Sabryn xoxoxo mwah