9:12 pm May 22, 2025 

*warning: I’m talking about my relationship with food and stress*

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Honey!!!

I am 

Stressed!!!!!!! 

(my eye wouldn’t stopped twitching my first 2 months at my job. That had never happened to me before so I didn’t know what it meant. That was my warning sign! Honey, you are STRESSSEDDDD and it’s only been 2 months!)

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I JUST GOT in the rhythm of  separating life and work. They were two different things. I was in my flow. I was writing. I was reading. I was doing my thing! 

And now I’m eating until my stomach hurts to then gain the urge to eat a chocolate cookie! 

Or a nice French fry

Where is the chocolate? Where is the starch!!!

The feeling makes me feel like I’m receiving a big hug. 

It brings me comfort! 

But man it leaves me constipated! Too much damn starch is not good for me. Aging has made me weak 

I talked to my therapist about my stress affecting my eating. 

I’m not used to having this kind of relationship with food. Normally when I’m stressed I can’t eat. My body literally doesn’t feel like eating and I have to force myself to do so. 

By my stress effecting me differently I don’t know what to do 

We came up with a plan to help me tackle the new responsibilities I gained at work (which is making me stressed) 

I wrote down everything that has me stressing that deals with my job. Examples are below

• I’m being hard on myself for not knowing what I’m doing… even though I’m still being trained (Sabryn breathe stop being hard on yourself)
• Different email formats for each meeting (find a system that works for you. I don’t have to do it the same way as the person before me) 
• Talk to my boss about what they expect from me in this new position. (Once I know what’s expected then I’ll have a clear line of what to do instead of trying to be the woman with 8 arms!!! I ONLY HAVE 2) 

I hope this helps me. 

I’m working out but eating too much will just cancel out all my progress! 

Ughhhh

And the stress is stopping the flow of my creative juices. 

I really want to get back in my flow. 

My aligned flow. 

That also means putting down the drinks. 

Ughhh I love a good margarita but I have to control my stress.

I want to enjoy my drink and not be in the feeling of needing it to ease my stress. 

I’ll try the suggestions my therapist and I came up with to see if it helps. 

*exhale*

*inhale*

*everything will be alright* 

Talk to you soon

-Sabryn xoxoxo mwah