10:26 pm June 5, 2025 

Yesterday I had the big interview 

The interview to get into grad school 

(Everybody screams) 

The interview went great! 

I really do believe I’ll get into grad school and will start my studies soon. 

Ahhhhhh

I’m very mentally elated!

I feel like the front of my brain is jumping up and down in excitement!  

It’s been a year since I’ve moved back home. A year ago I didn’t think I’ll get this far. I felt very stuck and very trapped in the circumstances life threw at me. 

I felt like the biggest loser ever with no way out. 

I’ve crawled, stomped my feet, and sobbed in hopes that I would get to the end. That I wouldn’t feel like that anymore. That I would be where I’m at today. Right now. 

I was reading “What’s Next? The 25 Year Old Crisis” and looking back at myself I was like wow. 

The fear I was feeling. The amount of loss and feeling lost that I felt. Not knowing what the fuck I was doing. It was very real. 

I’m very grateful that I did not stay in that feeling. I’m very grateful that I continued to move forward. 

A part of me feels like I can’t even 100% say “I did it” because the letter of congratulations hasn’t come through…

But in my heart of hearts, I know it will. 

I truly do feel like my life path is in this direction of me going back to school. My heart chakra is singing in nothing but love right now *chuckle* 

The back up plan I had if things didn’t go right doesn’t even feel tangible. It makes no sense. It may be something I’ll do later on in life but right now I must stay this course. 

I feel like I’m finally truly allowing myself to enjoy life. To have fun without over-analyzing everything. 

I mean I still do it lol but there are times where I just want to have fun without thinking about all the steps of hard work I’ll have to do to get the job done. 

I just want to enjoy it. Bask in it. Bask in the steps of the journey. 

I shouldn’t be rushing to get to each and every destination. 

I told my coworkers today… by being in our 20’s we are always rushing. Rushing to get to the next thing. Feeling like we are so behind. That is not the case AT ALL. What are we rushing to? Death? That’s the end. That is the end of the life we know. 

Before life and the ugly shit hit I used to be in love with life and curious about anything that moved. 

I feel myself getting back to that. Following what brings me joy is helping me get back to the root of who I am. 

… there was a reason I had to move back home…

… mmmm

Talk to you next time 

-Sabryn 

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